Has it really been over a month since I last had time to post anything? I'm not really a natural blogger. My thoughts move fast & move on to the next thing before I have time to write it down, far less get a chance at using the computer. But in the last month, God has been incredibly good & that deserves to be documented.....
I always knew God could speak to people, and that he often speaks through the Bible, but I have never heard Him speak so directly to me as He has in the last few weeks.
Since Spring Harvest last year, I have been discovering more about worshipping God by dancing. Not just as an absract idea, but actually trying out stuff at home & a bit in church. Last weekend I had the chance to go to a workshop/seminar run by Movement in Worship, which was quite a step of faith, but I was sure God was with me each step of the way (especially when my overnight accomodation fell through & another participant offered me much appreciated hospitality).
It turned out so brilliantly. we were studying Psalm 139 & expressing it in movement. This probably sounds totally bizarre, but the idea is to incarnate the Word i.e. make it part of us, let it sink deeper than it could just by reading it. I had chosen - no, sorrry - God had chosen v14 to be my verse: "Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvellous - how well I know it" The result was mindblowing! Like most women, I have often struggled with insecurity & self-image etc etc, but as this truth sank into my mind, I was lifted out of doubt, into certainty. God didn't make a mistake when He made me. He knew what he was doing! Yes, I know I'm not finished and that I'm marred by sin, but God's love sees past that to who He made me to be. And whatever he wants me to do in life will flow out of who he made me to be - out of love, not duty.
I felt liberated enough by this to do a lot more dancing! I am so priveleged to be in a church where creativity & self-expression are encouraged - another step directed by a wonderful God!
This is a very personal experience, and I'm partly writing it because I know I will not always feel this "upbeat", so I can look back to give me strength to look forward again. I hope anyone else reading this can also take heart, that God's workmanship is truly marvellous. Next time you put yourself down - STOP! God has made you wonderfully complex. His plan for you is good, perhaps stretching, but never going aginst the grain.
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